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Om Shanthi

Some days are just so lazy that all you want to do is to sit and stare.

I have 5 cupboards to clean, 1 blog to write, 15+ blogs to read , many comments to reply to , I have been browsing for some simple kurtas since morning, I have selected also but not purchased yet , 1 great book to read, I wanted to make tutti frutti cake, hot cocoa and so many other things  but I am simply sitting.

I don’t know what I am bored of. I am trying to recall what I was thinking about since morning but my mind is blank now. I could go sleep now as I didnot sleep well last night but I am not doing that either.

No, this is not a cheat post. I am really confused. May be I am just sad that the weekend is almost over? mmmmm..

Volt will wake up anytime soon then there will be no time even to sit. So I think all my mind wants now is to sit, with no other thoughts. I will just do what it says..

Have a great week people!!!

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Another strange dream

When I have strange,weird dreams and tell my mom about that she always finds a connection between any recent activity in real and the dream , even if I dream about using a crane to dig a huge hole underground to park my car! But yesterday I had a very different dream and I could not find out any connection . There were lot of people, people from my school, college, relatives – none of them I am close with. They are just some people I know , no close interaction. And there were people and things from very different timelines.

Around 2 Am I woke up to check volt and realized I had a very different dream. It started like this. I am in a class room with a girl from my 10th standard class whom I have not seen/spoken to since 10th standard.We stare at each other for sometime and suddenly I get up and go to a room, the room resembles one of my relatives’ place. I am trying to assemble a breast pump there. Then one of my distant relative whom I have seen only once in reality comes and asks me to explain how the pump works. I explain everything and he goes away. I realize I am late for a class and my college HOD is taking that class.

Since I am late I decide to skip the class and stay back, when I try to pack the breast pump in its box, I find the piston missing. The relative has stolen it I think. Then again I decide to goto class anyway and when I ask the professor if I can come in , the professor now  is Actor/comedian Sandhanam! He asks me to stay outside and  laughs about it as if its a joke. I stand confused when I feel a hand on my back.When I turn its one of my best friend(the only person in this dream whom I am close with, talked to recently in reality). Then many girls from my college come running and they are all hugging her and I am just standing watching.

I know the dream continued after that but I am not able to recall now. When I was putting volt back to sleep at 2, I purposefully tried to recollect the dream so that I will remember in the morning.I managed to remember 75% of it I think.

What is surprising me is the people and things in this dream, shuttling between different times and majority of the people in this dream are almost forgotten in reality. Why did my brain pick up random things and connected them ? What triggered all these?

Human brain is a mystery!

Posted in Bloggin Marathon Jan 2013, Thoughts of a confused child

Updates on eye infection

My eye infection is still there. Yesterday I was travelling by train and with the strong wind or I don’t know what , in the evening my eyes were heavy blood red and irritating. We went to see doctor but he was on vacation and it was already late so we came home. I slept off.

Morning it was better but I still wanted to check with the doc once as it is 1.Eyes 2. happneing second time 3. First time was a really bad experience 4. its been a week since this redness started.

When I had it last july, I went to a hospital and they said I could have some lethal disease which could cause eye infection. That eye doctor (Appaa I am getting so angry even today), she had to explain me about some dangerous disease, instead of talking to me she had a couple of people inside her consulting room along with me and was chit chatting with them. Now and then she looked at me and said ‘you might be having this this’ I asked  in tears ‘Is it confirmed, what shall I do now, any medicine?’.She was busy talking to her guests and then she turned and said ‘ Get all these tests done and consult your family doctor’. My family doctor also treats us like a guest only ok but never ever he had talked to us when there is a patient talking to him. We are not even allowed inside.

Me and my mom were terrified and next two days were hell. We ran around , got few tests done and finally showed it to our doctor and he said I am perfectly fine! And then I consulted another eye doctor and he said that I have some allergy and gave me medicines! phew!

After six months again my eyes are red, irritating and itching. I got tensed ,prayed and went to another new eye doc suggested by my FIL. One look and he said I have some allergy. What a relief! .He gave me drops. Now the biggest problem is nobody can tell me what I am allergic to. I have to find it out by myself. I used nothing new in last 6 months. I don’t know how to figure this out.My eyes are OK now. But I have to find out the source to stop it from happening again.What should I not use/do to stop this! God help me.

I am going to try these for now.

1.Not to use kajal

2. To take care that shampoo or soap does not get into my eyes.

Lets see.

Posted in Bloggin Marathon Jan 2013, Books, Thoughts of a confused child

Warning :- unttendended

**unttendended**

Yesterday night I was travelling. Result -> I am too sleepy.I called my friends for dinner instead of lunch.That sleepy.

And the universe is against me.After yesterday’s post I thought I will have ideas for five days. It will be easy. Seems like it is not.

Generally the conductors refuse to give me change. Most of the mornings there will be some irritating event in bus. I thought I will write about today’s event . But but the conductor called me and gave the change though we were 15 kms away from my bus stop!!! One idea gone!

Next I thought I will take a pic of the food I cooked today morning and make it guess it post. But but the idlis came too nice, soft and fluffy.Thanks to MIL.She prepared the maavu. Another idea gone.

Wanted to take a pic of sunrise but it was a cold day today and no sun wonly!

And no interesting conversation in bus.Can you believe it!

Yesterday I had been to a Siva temple and saw some interesting paintings. Now I want to read stories about Siva. Please can you suggest some book?. This is not a cheating post. I really want to know.

I would also like to read Myth=Mithya by Devdutt. How is it ? Any idea?

Ponniyin Selvan reading is going good. Even in that sleepy state I read it in bus today.

I am again travelling tomorrow and then day after tomorrow and full next week. There are two weddings ! Hope I have fun!

I have developed eye infection again. It happened few months ago and I had to go through lot of stressful things.I will do a separate post on it. Now my right eye is red again. Pray for me! It should heal soon.

Posted in Bloggin Marathon Jan 2013, Thoughts of a confused child

Six minutes of joblessness

Start :-

1. I have to respond to the comments.I have not done yet.

2. I have to complete my project line item this week. I have become so lazy.

3.What ringtone is that? Sounds cute Smiley

4. *cling cling* sound?  Someone is having breakfast at desk.

5. Teammate G looks cute today 🙂

6. Is my manager looking at my screen? Smiley

7. itching Smiley

8. Upma was good.Not sure if I am fully full.Should have taken more Smiley

9. Hope it doesnot rain today.Forgot to bring my umbrella.

10. Need to make something simple for dinner tonight Smiley

11. who is coughing Smiley

12. My stomach is aching.

13. Wow I am getting so many ideas for this 30-day marathon blogging Smiley

14. Team lead asking something Smiley

15. Responding Smiley

16. I am thirsty

17 . I am scared of cabs suddenly Smiley

18. No. 18

19. I should reduce chocolate intake.

20. Oops I left half a bar of bournville in chennai. Hope no one finds it.

21. *looking around*

22. Someone is pressing spacebar continuously Smiley

23. 😦 I don’t have any topic in mind.How am I gonna write continuously for 30 days! Smiley

24. Office is calm today

25. I don’t like this guy x.

26. I am sleepy Smiley

27. 3 more days for weekend . yay! Smiley

28. I miss the sound of opening and closing a pencil box. I want pencil box.

end:

Since I did not have any organized thought I just wrote down the thoughts that came in my mind for the last 6 minutes. Now I have a topic for tomorrow and day after. huhaha 🙂

 

Smileys from http://www.freesmileys.org

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Abnormally normal

1. Sometimes in bus, I hear people talking loud. Talking loud (in a language I can understand) about their personal problems/opinion on something. Some of these talks sound so different/funny/interesting to me that I immediately feel like blogging about it. But when I come and sit down, a doubt enters my mind – “what if they accidentally land up on my blog and find out their that their personal stuff is made public! – I think think and think and at the end sometimes I write,most of the times I skip.

2. I have had a weird dream (occurred 2-3 times) .In that someone who blogs sees me in a bus doing something stupid (control your thoughts eh) like for eg the other day I fell on someone’s lap . Someone (who does not know me)notices it and finds it funny and blogs about it. And I “accidentally” land up on their blog read about myself and in comments section I type “That was ME ME ME” and we become thick friends. 🙄 After the dream I usually get up and think (sigh!) what if I had done something wrong and they blog angrily about me. Will I type “ME ME ME” in comments section or will I just say “Huh Its soo wrong at many levels ,just kill her I say!”

These two thoughts come and go,but not often.Rarely.Now tell me ..

Am I normal??? Thinking Smiley

Am I Normal???? Confused Smiley

Tell me I am Normal!!! Praying Smiley

 

 

Thanks to http://www.smileyvault.com

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Sense of Humour – Limited Edition!

Last night I was simply looking at the ceiling and thinking about..err..myself , you know about the good qualities bad qualities…I was thinking about the greatest “bulb” moments of my life and during this recap session, one incident came into my mind.It happened long back in college. A very few innocent people in my college used to call me witty and in order to maintain that “image” I used to repeat the same jokes again and again to many people.One day it went little too much and I got caught!!

One thing led to another and suddenly my mind was filled with so many such incidents where I had to repeat the same joke multiple times just to maintain the image . On further investigation I found that these kind of events happened mostly under these two circumstances.

Sense of Humour- when it is limited at the giving end:-

You are talking to a friend, suddenly you crack a joke and the friend (culprit!) praises you (too much!)

Everything gets into your head and you get into repeat-mode

With every new compliment,you end up telling the same joke again and again to each and every person and it reaches a saturation point

Sense of Humour – when it is limited extreme – at the receiving end

First time:

Modulation(in which you tell the joke): Similar to a small kid who is reciting rhymes in full mood

3rd,4th time:-

Modulation: Similar to a small kid who is reciting rhymes in a slightly cranky mood

After a couple of times:-

Modulation : Similar to announcements made in railway station

Saturation Point:

Modulation : Similar to a child reciting 958th thirukkural in a “Reciting all 1330 thirukkural” competition

As I was buried deep in my investigation thoughts (still staring at the ceiling), my amma came and turned off the lights. I switched off my brain and went into snoozeland!!!

 

 

Credits :- All cartoons were created using  http://www.toondoo.com

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Do not complain when you are sleepy!!

Afternoon around 3 o clock,I am super frustrated..I ping a friend in office chat tool..

Me: Hoiii.. You there?

F: Yep

Me: I am exhausted.. I don’t know how to do this..its eating my brain.. I am getting headache!! I want to sleep.. Arggggg..

(no reply from friend.. instead I receive a call)

Me: hello

Other end : Hellooo SS! what happened??

Me: !!!! hello … TL? what? mm nothing happened!! just working..why asking?

Other end : No you just said that you are frustrated!!!

Me: (in mind) what !!! Hw did he know that I am not happy? Did my friend tell him? No way…..With all these thoughts I take a look at my chat window and realize that I pinged my TL , not my friend!!!!! 😯 😯 😯

Me: (on phone) ah.mmm no no TL ..this task.. mmm..I just I just thought that it was my friend!!

Other end: **Loud Laugh**

 

Have a happy weekend!!! 😀

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Life is an experiment..

Aim:– To waste everyone’s precious time.

Things Required:- A problem in your life, a fb account, some good souls around you, 3 egg dosas, a dog and a traffic signal

Procedure :-  Sit idle. If you are lucky unlucky enough problems will find you out and reach you automatically.

Inference:-

We can divide it into 3 stages.

Stage 1 :-

1. You are worried.

2. Happy songs cheer you up.

3. You believe that in life after a bad phase there WILL be a good phase and you decide to wait for this bad phase to get over soon.

4. You believe you are strong enough to handle it.

5. You see a lot of inspiring messages on FB (not applicable all the time) and it gives you new hope. At this stage even a traffic signal changing from red to green gives a new meaning in your life.

6. You happily stuff 3 egg dosas and go to office and feel high and sleepy.

Stage 2:-

1.You are worried.

2. Good music cheers you up.

3. You believe that in life after a bad phase there WILL be a good phase but in your case ALONE the bad phase is extending little longer than expected.

4. You reach out to your friends and they say “Everything will be ok soon” .It calms you down.

5. You pray for strength to handle it.

6. You read FB messages hoping that it would cheer you up (but only the opposite is happening).You are unable to differentiate between red and amber in traffic signal.

6. You happily stuff 3 egg dosas and go to office and feel high and sleepy.

Stage 3:-

1. You are silent.

2. Good music only makes you cry.

3. Is there anything called “good” phase in life?

4. When your friends advise you that “Everything will be alright soon”, your mind argues with every single piece of advice you get. Your heart goes and hides somewhere deep inside that all good words from your friends fail to reach it.

5. You walk like a zombie , go to office, do nothing and come back home and do nothing.

6. Its been days since you checked FB and your bus waits in the same signal 3 times.

7. You see a dog sleeping in the middle of the road and notice that no vehicle is honking at it.Instead they all just take a turn and pass through the sides.Suddenly you understand the meaning of your life. You Believe that you are strong enough to handle this.You switch on all the lights and your heart feels the brightness. You remember your good friend going through a rough phase , call him up and explain him how to make Bisi bela bath.Before hanging up you tell him that “Be strong! Good times are not far! ” in bold.

8. You happily stuff 3 egg dosas and go to office and feel high and sleepy and happy.

Conclusion:-

1.Only few people in this world have the ability to make sure that their eating habits never get affected by their problems,no matter how big the problem is! 😀

2.It is possible to waste someone else’s time by doing pointless experiments 👿

3.On a serious note, you need friends in your life. They may not be able to solve your problems, they may not be able to give you a meaningful advice.But they have this power to calm you down just by listening to your problems.

 

P.S:- Work is hectic and there are so many things going on in life.So I am not updating my blog regularly.But I am totally ok. Love you all 🙂

 

 

 

 

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When you are sad…

. …your mind tries all possible things to find happiness. It searches the road, the bus, internet etc etc desperately to find reasons to be happy. My mind is doing the same thing now! Few things I did in the last one week …

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*called one of my good friends*

Me: Hiiiiiiii, Good morning!!!!

Friend: Good morning, monkey!!! Wassup??

Me: Nothing dear . I just wanted to call you last week itself to tell you this but then I could not **giving some really lame reasons here**. Sorry. BELATED BIRTHDAY WISHES!!!!

Friend : hmmmmm…let me think about it (about forgiving me )

Me: **without a pause** Seri ok. While you are thinking about it shall we go and have DBC today (Death By Chocolate) ??

Friend: YES.OKIE!!  **She is such a sweetie na!! **

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Mind voice:-OOH Nothing is good in my life.. I should do something new..hmmmm..ok lets go buy a brand new kajal!!

I read some very good reviews about a kajal brand..All reviews said that its jet black, just one strike and it will stay for more than 5 hours, smudge proof, water resistant blah blah!!

**OK before you come to a conclusion, I don’t wear makeup and I don’t check reviews for kajal and all.. I was not feeling good so did all these things **

Anyway, went to a nearby shop bought the kajal, came home, washed my face. Slowly opened the new kajal and tried applying again and again and again.. Nothing happened!!!!Extra dark, jet black?No nothing happened! Did I buy the wrong stuff? Are my eyes kajal proof? After trying so many times it looked ok in my eyes. Just then my brain decided to recap all the bad things in my life and soon eyes did a “water -resistant” test on my kajal.

Kajal Failed!!!!

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After banging my head on the office computer for 5 hours to resolve a problem, I go to the loo. One girl comes and asks me “Hey, Were you sleeping?”. Now how do I react to this? Generally people ask ‘ hey you look dull are you not well’ something like that na.

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I bought a pack of tea bun .It has 4  and I finished 3 with morning tea, kept one for amma (Yes,I am generous!!) and went to office.Evening when I went back I still saw the bun, asked her why she didn’t have it.She said “You will come back hungry na so kept it for you!” .I finished that one too without a second thought!! I was not in a good mood OK ! 👿 👿 👿

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SnS sent me an email asking if I am OK

Me:- I feel like running away to Antartica!!

SnS:- I will also come!!!

I was smiling 🙂 🙂 🙂

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Tharani called me and we talked for sometime.I felt much better after the call.In my last post I didnot even explain what my problem was but all your comments made me feel good.

Thank you so much and I love you!!! 🙂 🙂 🙂

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My latest dream..

I am in a shop and buying Ponds white beauty. Its price is Rs 564. That is it!!!!!

Does this mean anything? 😕 I don’t use this product at all. Sigh! Even my dreams are boring now!!

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Me: I am really very angry with you , God!! 😡

God: **silence **

After 12 hours…

Me: I am still angry 😡

God: **silence **

After 24 hours…

Me: I am back 😀 Are you angry with me?? I was really worried yesterday, so showed my anger. But I love you OK!

God : ** silence **

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I am feeling better today.I have hopes that things will get better soon.

Please please wish me luck and pray for me!