..to know that someone doesnot like me.I cannot handle when my good/close friends are upset with me. CAN NOT. Some days back I made a mistake and my friend X was angry with me. She shouted at me, I said sorry and then for sometime we didnot talk. After a couple of hours I tried to start a conversation but the response from the other side were not normal. I understood that she was still upset so I decided to give some time. Next day again when I tried to start a conversation the same thing happened I left it at that point.
After 3 days, we were talking about something else.Though I got prompt replies , the talk was very formal. I was thinking so hard to find out how big my mistake was. It was NOT that big, really. All the 4 days the same thought was running in my mind again and again and again.I was expecting her to forgive me and was ready to ask sorry as many times required . I was thinking why it takes so much time for some people to forgive things .I was also thinking like ‘ok the mistake I did might not be big for me but for her it might have hurt her a big time’ .
In college I was surrounded with people who could very easily forgive or atleast forget things and be normal. All my close friends in college they won’t take even a day to come out the ‘angry’ phase. May be I am so tuned to it that now I cannot handle people getting angry on me.
My mind never stops thinking about it/her/him till that person gets normal and talks to me properly. My mind refuses to accept certain things like
-> We cannot expect every single person in this world to love us.
-> Not all people can forgive and forget within a couple of hours, no matter how small/big the issue is. Some people take more time. You have to be patient.
-> At any time there will be someone who may not like you. No matter what you do, they will not be pleased.
-> You will still be okay even if someone hates you.